Intro
I'm fat. I haven't always been that way. Lately, my weight seems to be causing me health problems. Seems that with every new health problem that arises, one of the causes can be attributed to "obesity". My BMI is 29...the outer rim of merely "overweight" one more point and I cross into the realm of obese. Yuck... The problem isn't only my health, but it is also the way I look at myself and the way I perceive others look at me. I'm constantly self-conscious. I joke about my fat self...I'm ashamed. I don't find myself attractive, how can I expect my husband to? I've always been a round-faced, cherubish looking person. I've always dreamed of the long, thin face and perfectly proportioned chin and nose...I know that look is unrealistic. The weight only adds to the cherub features to accentuate my round face and small nose. I'm not a "pretty" fat person. When I was thin, I was considered pleasant looking, although I've never been a beauty queen, but that is okay with me. But, fat...I am no longer even handsome at all. Some women wear their weight well...I don't. I always thought Oprah was a beautiful fat woman. She looks much better now...the picture of a healthy woman...I admire her.